Sometimes I am so overwhelmed by all the items on my to-do list that I become mentally paralyzed and not able to accomplish even one thing. Or, I become super-energized, practically bouncing from one task to another, never quite finishing anything, as my brain sizzles and overheats.
Welcome to my world! Life, job, and business are almost more than I can handle some days. I promise myself that I will slow down my frantic race to “get everything done,” but I backslide almost instantly after making the promise. How can I juggle all these elements without having a breakdown? I’m not sure; hence this blog. Perhaps exploring this topic will give me some insights that I might otherwise have missed.
My life is not very complicated, but it does need some attention: trying to lose weight, eat right, exercise, get enough sleep (or at least some sleep), walk the dog, feed the pets, shop for groceries and other essentials, clean house (once in a while), do the laundry, take out the trash and recycling, maintain the car, spray the weeds, wash the dishes (once in a while), pay the bills, and so on. I don’t have a partner, most of the time my grown children live elsewhere, and there is no maid. So, it’s all up to me. (I haven’t been able to teach the guinea pig how to use the vacuum cleaner.) Luckily, my housekeeping standards are very low and I’m not a fussy eater.
My job as a school librarian is demanding, but it pays the bills and lets me buy beads and supplies to make jewelry. I get a great deal of satisfaction from working with elementary students but manage the library as well as teach. I am blessed to have a very capable assistant, but every day I look around and see what I did not accomplish. I never seem to finish one project before having to start a new one. There is enough variety to keep me from becoming bored, but on a bad day I am pulled in so many different directions that I feel I might “snap” like an over-extended rubber band. And that’s not even taking into account malfunctioning printers or computers!
My business—the jewelry-making aspect of it—feeds my need to be creative and to bring something bright, colorful, and beautiful into being. Unfortunately, other aspects consume so much time that I don’t always get a chance to create because I am sitting at the computer Twittering, blogging, editing photos, reading and posting in forums, and listing new items. With shops on two different sites, there is always something that needs doing. Online sales have been non-existent for me the past few months, so I don’t even have the satisfaction of selling something to balance all the hard work I have done. I know my hard work is an investment, but it’s hard to keep going without some payback.
So, why do I keep going, you might reasonably ask? I guess the main reason is that I am stubborn and deep down I believe that I can succeed in this artisan venture. I may have to regroup and rethink some of what I have been doing. I may have to work smarter and not harder. I may have to make more judicious choices of what to do and what to let slide. I may have to lower my standards a bit and stop expecting perfection. I may have to stop sweating the small stuff so much and refocus on the larger view. I may even have to give myself permission to not be super woman all the time.
I know I can be successful on my terms. I am not looking to create a mega-business. I want to create one-of-a-kind pieces of jewelry which I sell to buyers who prefer handmade over mass-produced, and I would like to have income exceed expenses and even pay myself a wage. I am approaching retirement age, so eventually my job will not be an issue, but there will always be the details of life to deal with. My hope is to achieve some balance that allows me to juggle just a bit less frantically, so that the joys of working with my hands, creating beautiful jewelry far exceed the cares of daily existence. Oh, for that day to come soon!
Welcome to my world! Life, job, and business are almost more than I can handle some days. I promise myself that I will slow down my frantic race to “get everything done,” but I backslide almost instantly after making the promise. How can I juggle all these elements without having a breakdown? I’m not sure; hence this blog. Perhaps exploring this topic will give me some insights that I might otherwise have missed.
My life is not very complicated, but it does need some attention: trying to lose weight, eat right, exercise, get enough sleep (or at least some sleep), walk the dog, feed the pets, shop for groceries and other essentials, clean house (once in a while), do the laundry, take out the trash and recycling, maintain the car, spray the weeds, wash the dishes (once in a while), pay the bills, and so on. I don’t have a partner, most of the time my grown children live elsewhere, and there is no maid. So, it’s all up to me. (I haven’t been able to teach the guinea pig how to use the vacuum cleaner.) Luckily, my housekeeping standards are very low and I’m not a fussy eater.
My job as a school librarian is demanding, but it pays the bills and lets me buy beads and supplies to make jewelry. I get a great deal of satisfaction from working with elementary students but manage the library as well as teach. I am blessed to have a very capable assistant, but every day I look around and see what I did not accomplish. I never seem to finish one project before having to start a new one. There is enough variety to keep me from becoming bored, but on a bad day I am pulled in so many different directions that I feel I might “snap” like an over-extended rubber band. And that’s not even taking into account malfunctioning printers or computers!
My business—the jewelry-making aspect of it—feeds my need to be creative and to bring something bright, colorful, and beautiful into being. Unfortunately, other aspects consume so much time that I don’t always get a chance to create because I am sitting at the computer Twittering, blogging, editing photos, reading and posting in forums, and listing new items. With shops on two different sites, there is always something that needs doing. Online sales have been non-existent for me the past few months, so I don’t even have the satisfaction of selling something to balance all the hard work I have done. I know my hard work is an investment, but it’s hard to keep going without some payback.
So, why do I keep going, you might reasonably ask? I guess the main reason is that I am stubborn and deep down I believe that I can succeed in this artisan venture. I may have to regroup and rethink some of what I have been doing. I may have to work smarter and not harder. I may have to make more judicious choices of what to do and what to let slide. I may have to lower my standards a bit and stop expecting perfection. I may have to stop sweating the small stuff so much and refocus on the larger view. I may even have to give myself permission to not be super woman all the time.
I know I can be successful on my terms. I am not looking to create a mega-business. I want to create one-of-a-kind pieces of jewelry which I sell to buyers who prefer handmade over mass-produced, and I would like to have income exceed expenses and even pay myself a wage. I am approaching retirement age, so eventually my job will not be an issue, but there will always be the details of life to deal with. My hope is to achieve some balance that allows me to juggle just a bit less frantically, so that the joys of working with my hands, creating beautiful jewelry far exceed the cares of daily existence. Oh, for that day to come soon!
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